Desperate Love

I miss her desperately, i can see her in my mind, her smile, her beautiful brown eyes, her hair.. i love her energy she makes me feel higher than any drug could...

When she talks i listen to her every word, her voice is soft and sweet, i love her pronunciation , her accent and the way she uses body language to punctuate her words , i love her.....

It seems so long ago but at the same time only yesterday since i held her in my arm’s, made love to her, Kissed her lips, and fell asleep in her arms, i long for those nights again...

When i saw her last it had been about a month since we didnt see eachother and then, the second she walked into the room i was breathless ... i mean really !! i thought "my god, how are you so perfect?" i would have got down on one Knee for her right then.....

What hurts the most is knowing that she's with someone else, someone who doesnt deserve her, doesnt know what he's got, cant treat her the way she should be, cant give her the thing's that matter, not material stuff, that kind of love where you become a better person because you want to be all you can for her, be there for her in the good times and the bad, share life together, build a future together....

I know she cares, and i think i know she wants it too...

I can see it in her eyes, i can hear it in her voice, in the way she smiles at me, holds my hand...

Its a look she gives of wanting something but can't quite take the step....

I dont know if i should try and give her that push or if i should stand back and let thing's fall where they may....

But i've been hurt by waiting before, if you want someone shouldn’t you fight for them ?? show them how much you truly care about them ?? It’s hard to know....

If happiness is being able to wake up every morning next to the person you love, then i can only say that the first thing i think of when i wake up and the last thing when i lay down to sleep is you... Mariana, I LOVE YOU.

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Boyfriends Ex

I have a Problem with my Boyfriend's ex, she is his highschool sweetheart. They were bestfriends and went out for 4 years. He added her to Facebook, now i think that he is going to cheat on me with her. We've already discussed this and he thinks im making a big deal out of nothing. I just cant get over it though i've thought about talking to his ex but i dont know what i'd say.
I need help Getting over this.

- Jenelle

Sex Weakness

About 5 months ago a friend of mine brought along a girl she knew from her neighborhood to come party with us. We talked a little, drank a lot, and she ended up in my bed with me that night. The next day she left and i didnt know her name and really wasn't all that concerned if id ever see her again. Later that day she sent me an e-mail and we started talking a lot and i learned that she was actually a really cool person and i became a lot more attracted to her.
We learned that we had a lot in common and i started to think about her as more than just a one-night stand. I actually began to like her and care about her. she told me from the start that she'd just gotten out of a 5 month relationship but the more we got to talking, the more i noticed that her life with her ex was still very complicated and i realized it was not a good situation. Regardless, we continued dating for a month more or so until she finally freaked out and said we could only be friends because she didn't want to lie to her ex about seeing someone new -- it seemed that every time the sex got better, she got more and more scared.
We haven't had been intimate with eachother for almost 2 months and are trying to just be friends but last night after talking about how sex would be bad the next time we see eachother, the conversation quickly turned into some really good phone sex. What have i gotten myself into? Is this a fling? Are we better just as friends even though the sex is so good or does it seem that we might have something real together? My friendship with her is really important at this point and i dont want to lose her but i know that we're both weak for eachother. What should i do?

- Miggzy

Trust

Hi, I need some TRUTHFUL advice.
My girlfriend and I met 18 months ago and since then we have been living together for about a year. She has been married six times and has gotten a divorce every time. I have never been married or been in a truly serious relationship until now. We told each other all the things that two people say when they are passionately in love. We discussed everything in our lives with each other and made plans and decisions for a permanent relationship. I even gave up my job so we could work around hers, since her job was more established and secure. There are many other things that were discussed that I could include in this message but it would be too long.
Now, she wants to give up on this relationship without telling me all the TRUTHFUL reasons why. I expressed to her from the very beginning that her relationship track record was bad and that I was not looking for a serious relationship at the time that I met her, but the fact that we both agreed this relationship was for real and we could commit to it, we decided to RISK it.
My values are the most important thing to me and TRUST is at the very top of the list, which I expressed to her. How can someone be so cruel to fake a relationship, committment, and LOVE? She tells me that she will LOVE me forever, no matter what happens, but why should I believe her. She has already broken my TRUST. It's not the fact she has broken this trust that frustrates, it's the fact that I can't TRUST what she tells me anymore. Am I fighting a loosing battle? I hate to walk away from something that I put so much effort and sacrifice into. She has some serious isssues that she needs to work on, and we have discussed them, but for whatever reason, she wants to end the relationship.
By the way, she has wanted to end the relationship many times before only to change her mind. Not because she wanted to work on herself or the relationship, but because of the reasons that I still don't know. She has also left once only to call me and wanted to get back together. All of these actions are things that I'm analyzing and trying to come to a decision. There is much more that I could include but I'm hoping someone can give me some advice on what I've written. Thanks for all of your help.

- Mike